I thought I'd just rattle off some stuffs that had been going on in my head....

I thought. The older you are, the lonelier you get. You suddenly feel that you no longer possess that aura or circumference of people who share the same common goals. Especially now that I have gone on to the REAL world. The career world. The rat race.Whatever analogies that come along with it. Somehow, all that is testified today.

Suddenly, you're choked up in this room where everything is smoky, cloudy... depending on how you view it. You are alone. You can't call for help anymore. The more you wanna share your troubles with someone, especially those that have been together through thick and thin with you, seem so distant. They moved on. You choose to stay. You try to summon your 'kakis'.... But it seemed that you're the only one making the effort. You are no longer of their importance. They slipped away, one by one, you lose their names, faith, love, sense of belonging. You are alone.

Could you have attribute it to your own doing? Maybe. Was it because you show no emotion or love or anything that makes sense? Maybe. Could it because prior to this, you pay no attention to them either? Could be.

It's too late to make ammends. You try. You seem to fail. Have you? Are you losing them? Now you're all alone. Stand up. Straighten up your shirt. Let's see if you can do this.
Guess I must have been frustrated. And the more I thought about it, the more I sink into the dark smoky, cloudy room.....