Sometimes, we are often confronted with alot of un-expectations in this wretched day to day trodding. We meet new people, trusted more people, lose friends and acquaintances became closer and so on. Things come and go just like the tide. It's such a shame to know that nothing last forever. Yet, we have to swallow this like a jagged pill.

In these past few weeks and months, alot of events lead to surprising outcomes, some pleasant, others horrendous. Have you ever thought that you would soon be sinking in your own sweat? I didn't. But it DID happen. I shudder to think what lies ahead of me. So what next?

I wasted a whole day, not knowing if the day has brought about fruits or bear just greens. I was supposed to meet up with people who I find comfort, people who have been through the worst of times with me, in love and war. But it didn't turn out to be. But I met up with an old bud. Who haven't comforted me in ages. Who chooses to lead his life like a nomad, alone. He told me that why have alot of friends, when at the end of the day, you only come back to the ame ones. Of course your freinds will turn to be acquaintances, who only come to you should they need help. Yup. We are all guilty of it. Don't deny it. We all do it, subconsciously or not.

Then I realise that once upon a time, I had such great buddies. I lost them due to my ignorance. Or petty.

I still dun understand how not turning up when my friends are trying to celebrate my birthday can become such a sin. I soon realise that I am playing with time. I dun have enough, time is beating me to a pulp, and yet I still play with it. I can't indulge myself in doing work and expect time to wait for me. Time is really a cruelty yet time is the only factor we have for now.

I also came to sense on how birthdays remind you of how much achievements you do in life. Now how do you measure that? Where do I start? What is the mileage? I dun even know how to begin.

It's over. I'll just have to learn how to live on my own. Like how it's supposed to be. Learn to. There are times when my mouth itches to tell someone exciting stories about my life... Then I realise I have... No one.

Again, time is the biggest culprit. I dun stay up late anymore, I can't afford to. Some people can do it coz time isn't a factor. Time moves slowly, but for me, I hardly have time to say hello to my toes anymore. You can sleep your day away, but if I do, I'm in deep shit. I don't even have the stamina to stay past 1am.... My eyes will surender and all I can see is a black screen... Oooops, next stop, Dreamland.

I must admitall I do is whine and complain and as I am typing this blog, Time is laughing hillariously at me... WASTER!!! You just did it! A round of applause!

I better stop my ramblings for now. Phew.